Where to begin? I guess I'll start at the bottom line and work my way from the start to the end.
Change is coming. There is no getting around that.
I guess a little over a year ago, God started ruffling the nest. I have a great job with a wonderful company, for which I am extremely grateful. My supervisor had just left and I had really gotten the hang of what I was doing, so I began thinking about what direction I wanted to go. I've proceeded to dream and daydream about what I would love to do next. That mental journey has taken me down many paths that I won't bore you with the details, but suffice it to say that it has been a process that has caused me to dig deeper into my true passions and what I'd really like to pursue. As of now, those mental travels haven't led anywhere.
Fast-forward to this spring. My business unit announced that there would be a reorganization of our company. I'm admittedly still somewhat green in the corporate world since the vast majority of my career years were spent in youth ministry at a local church. So, I've just been trying to soak up what that entails like a human sponge. We were told that it meant a 10-15% decrease in the workforce. We were told that everyone under the business unit president would have to post for a position, even if it is the same position. It's like a giant game of Boggle, but you're guaranteed leftover dice. On Monday, I got my first look at the new organizational chart. It's still fairly unclear, since there are no job descriptions attached to the titles yet. But, if I were to identify what seems to be the "Conference Center Cooridinator"'s parallel role, I'd guess it was the new "Event Planner" position. The trouble is, there are two of us and one position and who knows how many other people who would like to apply for it. There will be other roles for which I can apply, but nothing has stood out to me as a perfect fit yet. As for time frame, I am scheduled to apply near the end of September and would be told whether I have a position at the end of October. The new organization is effective November 1.
So, that leaves me with many decisions to make...
and what is weighing on my heart is what do I really want to do?
What is in the very best interest of my family?
What has God been preparing me to do next?
If you're a praying person, I'd ask your prayers:
that God would illuminate the next step
that I'd have faith to follow and wait
With a heavy heart and a chin that I keep redirecting up,
UPDATED: They updated the organizatin chart to include two Event Coordinator positions.